Things feel a Little Wierd

Things feel a little wierd alright, we went to the Penguin Uniting Church for a healing service and saw some great things. I had a time of preaching on the gospel of the Kingdom and then we asked for anyone who had need of healing to come forward.
We had as our first person an beautiful old lady of about 80 who had two squealing hearing aids and couldn't see much at all.
When I asked what she wanted Jesus to do for her, she said, "I want to see and hear"
We prayed and she said she could see much better (after the service was over she went outside into the light and said she could really see heaps better; Praise God) but we never saw any change to her hearing (that is, not then)
We saw a man get the movement back into his shoulder so he could lift his arm all the way over his head. He was waiting an operation, but Jesus got to him before the surgeons.
But, here's the weird thing.
It feels like nothing is happening anymore.
I mean I'm not getting any manifestations and it seems as though nothing is happening when I pray.
I am so discouraged.

I think I had a small breakthrough this morning.
This dear old lady who is bent over and in pain had a fall Tuesday evening and hurt her ribs on her right side and it is hard for her to breath deeply, she also banged her head and is now carrying a large bruise on her forehead.
She told me that she doesn't like asking for help but had to call her daughter and ask if she might come around to make sure her disabled son would be cared for while she goes to bed.

As she told me this on Wednesday morning it occured to me that Jesus asked the man who was blind what it was that he wanted (couldn't He see that this man was blind??) Jesus wanted him to ask, and so this morning I told her this story and asked what it was that she would like Jesus to do for her.
She was a little surprised and said "Lots of things", I asked if healing her ribs would be one; to this she agreed.
I asked if I could pray for her and she was happy for this to happen. Today for the first time (I have prayed for her some 5 times now) she started to get heat localised under my hand and she could feel it.
Unfortunatly her son got impatient and started to make a nuience of himself so I had to stop and take him to work.
I am believing that Jesus who began a good work in this ladies ribs will continue it until she is pain free.
I will see her again on Monday morning so I'll let you know what happens.
In the mean while keep your eyes on Jesus.

Opportunites

Here I am again with more questions than answers, that's starting to feel normal for me lately, maybe this how it's always meant to be.
Anyway I've had some great opportunites to pray for people lately, I'm still waiting for the right time with the student from school, but other people have agreed to prayer.
I don't quite understand though, each person felt something; one said it's like there is an electric blanket on my back; another said that she had electricity from the top of her head to the souls of her feet while another said she was tingling all over and seeing colours in front of her eyes (that one is new for me) but after having prayed I could only see miniumal difference in each person, now that's why I've got questions.
I don't understand why there can be such manifestations with so little result.
There is much to learn.

Where to from here

What do you do when a student at the school you work at, who has a deformed arm and hand says, "you say Jesus loves me, so if He loves me, why do I have this?" showing me his hand/arm.

I know Jesus tells the man with the shrivelled hand to stretch it out and it was perfectly healed, but I'm not Jesus; I do know however that Jesus wants this boy to be healed but what if it doesen't work?
I think this is more about me!!!

Not sure what to title this

I'm feeling a little, well not sure how I'm feeling but feels a little strange.
I believe in healing and have seen some amazing things happen through a simple prayer of faith.

Others have had major things happen to them; like almost completely deaf ears open under my hand (feeling the ear pop open) watching a man with spina bifida stand and walk straight without any pain for the first time in his life; seeing people free from (back, hip, knee, shoulder, head, neck and most every other place on their body) pain who have been struggling for years, and yet as soon as come up against an old lady who is suffering with terrible arthritis who doesn't get healed after the second time I pray for her, I find myself now hesitant to try again.
I get to her place and I'm keen to pray; I've been listening to cd's on healing and I'm primed and yet when I get to talk to her I am overwhelmed by doubt.
What happens if nothing happens? What will she think of me, of God, of whatever?

Why I am so reluctant when it comes to this amazing lady?
Why aren't I so eager to see her recieve that I'm banging down her door to pray for her????

What the heck is wrong with me???
Do I believe or not??

Looking Ahead

Even though I hear faintly the music from my home, I like Paul (that's NOT saying I am like Paul [he was amazing], only that I am in a similar place in time) realise that even though I have no concerns about being called home I still have something to be, being found in.

There is so much to do and so much to be actively involved in.

I want to get every Christian who finds themself spending their last years in an elderly residence to find a place where they can be actively involved in the work of God through prayer.

We need to mobilise an army of prayer warriors who will usher in a powerful movement of the Holy Spirit so we the ones who are able to do the physicial stuff can see the Hand of God in the salvation of souls.

Are there any who want to see our Nation turn from our secularism to the One True and Living God. Is there any who want what Jesus wants? I'm sure there are multitudes who want this as I do but are uncertain as to what to do next.

If you are like most Christians are shut away within the confines of your denominations four walls and rarely if ever see anyone other than the faithful come through your front door and are concerned about the state of our Nation, lets talk.

I'm not saying I have the answers but with the collective desires of likeminded people let's see what our Jesus can and will do.

Interesting Times

Today was a day like any other. I got up, showered, dressed and got on my BMW and rode to work in the cold darkness of the early morning.
When I got to work however there was another worker who was suffering with a really sore arm and shoulder.
She had been to the Physiotherapist three times and said it is worse now than before.
So before the day was out I asked if I could pray for the injured shoulder, she agreed.
I put my hand on her shoulder blade and prayed.
Her shoulder got very warm and she told me this, and then she moved her arm around freely without pain.
God really is good.
Interesting, don't you think?

Questions, maybe's and dreams

This is a very strange world, it seems to be at our fingertips and yet it's just an illusion; not the world but the idea of closeness. I still live in the same place and I'm still the same distance away from the people I love and of my friends who are now starting to appear in other parts of the world. It's just that I can communicate a lot easier now than before. I see the injustice that is happening to others easier and almost instantly, but I still can't touch people or comfort them for where I am, but I can do bits and pieces can't I.
Life is very strange too, isn't it? The more I travel along this path the more I hunger for home; not my house my home. Things seemed to be somewhat in control when I was younger even though life was being lived fast and somewhat dangereously, but now it's slower and I'm a little more careful; I'm ready.
My dreams don't seem to have amounted to much either; things I hoped to achieve seem to have stalled. Maybe it's just that I see the enormity of the dream now that I have slowed down. Maybe I now am able to see them un-blurred like I never before, and realise it will take more time and more effort and more tears and more love and more passion and more help and more prayer and more of what I don't have to see them come to the place where I can pass them on to the next generation of people who don't have everything it takes to see them through.
Thank God for Jesus who does have what it takes to fill me with those things I need and lack.